Ugh Gosh ! Upsetnesss !

  Okay so yes I know it is he third blog that I've done today but it's my blog so you can suck it (; Anyways I am upset ! This bitch Muffin (Not his real name) Decides to trip me outside ! And the bad thing is that Cotton was right there ! Cotton didn't laugh or anything but he didn't slap muffin either . I got grass stains on my pants and ugh I was so embarrassed :\ I really wanna tell Cotton that I like him but what if he doesn't feel the same ?? What if he thinks I'm weird for liking him .. See gosh . Well I remember one time , I read this quote . It said "I would rather live my life with more Oh well's that What if's .. Meaning that I would rather tell him , and if he doesn't like me it's like "Oh well he doesn't like me .." But if I never do tell him it's like "Well what if he does like me .. ?" So yeah I don't even know what to do ! Man I just had a thought ! What if he was trying to reach out and talk to me !? Cause one time he messaged me on Facebook and I didn't know what to say so I just never replied . And another time he commented on my status and just said "yea" And I didn't reply cause I still didn't know what to say ! I get so nervous around him ! It's not even funny . Like when he asked me to borrow some lotion my hands were shaking when I gave it to him ! I wonder if he noticed .. I hope so (: Now maybe he knows that I do like him . Or maybe he thinks I have Parkinson's disease -___- Damn . Gosh I make the dumbest decisions sometimes ! Ugh only if I would have messaged him back on Facebook just one more time , he would have asked me for my number /: GOSH WHY AM I SO DUMB !? See look I'm typing really properly and everything is spelled right ! That's when you know I'm sad ! When I'm hyper and what not , I type not properly and just terribly . But now my mood is "-________,-" See look , there was a tear in that angry and annoyed face .  So I'm pissed and sad . Not a good combination .  Well I have to go cause I'm really sleepy . Goodnight bloggers .